To die would be an awfully big adventure.

At the moment it’s getting harder and harder everyday not to cut, I’m emotional all the time, and the littlest things are upsetting me but I don’t want to talk to anyone about it and I don’t want to cut because I’ve been doing so well but the urges are getting stronger and stronger

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Anonymous asked: what is your inspiration to stop selfharming?

well, while i was in hospital i just hit rock bottom and i was like ‘this isn’t solving anything’ and it took a while but i just cut less and less because i stopped seeing the point in it as it had stopped making me feel better and i was only ending myself up in a&e too many times to count. i don’t know i just got to the point when i was like i want to turn my life around now. it took my ex saying to me “look i don’t care whats going on, you’re not part of my life anymore” to really turn me around, i got sick of people just giving up on me so i thought i’d recover and stop to show them that i was worth their time. i hope that answers your question. 

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when people judge your whole personality on the fact you have self inflicted scars, really upsets me. Its like, they don’t know what triggered them to even press the blade on their skin. It’s not ‘attention seeking’ it’s simply a coping mechanism. It doesn’t define a person as a whole.. it just show’s how strong that person is.

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blacktaylorswift asked: "The prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets, the prettiest eyes cried the most tears, and the kindest of hearts have felt the most pain." Don't hurt yourself, think of all the positive things that come out of your life when you consider self-harming. You are too beautiful to lose and believe it or not, you are the reason why someone is smiling today.

thank you so much, you have no idea how much this means to me! *hugs*

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Stretching my ears has actually proven to be an effective way of avoiding cutting. The pain lasts somewhat longer and leaves you with something to look after. I don’t know, it helps me.

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Anonymous asked: Thanks and I know I should throw them out really but it's just gunna be hard. Your getting an operation you get rid of yours? I didn't even realise that was possible! Anyhow I wish you the best of luck in Recovery and stuff and thanks for you help and advice:) x

it’s hard but i promise quitting is going to be hard, thats what makes it worth it. yeah once i’m 16 i’m applying for surgery which is either going to be laser surgery or skin graphing. thank you, i wish you all the best to! you are very welcome. my ask is always open! x

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Anonymous asked: Thanks that was pretty helpful:) only when you say you don't like looking at your scars I'm like the opposite, it's really screwed up but I find mine triggering plus I really can't bring myself to throw away my razors it's to final, you know? X

yeah i find mine triggering as they bring back a lot of memerioes, i have them covered up most of the time and will do until i’ve had surgery, and i know it’s final but it’s the only way you can truly come to facts that you’re going to stop other wise the temptation will always be there. if you don’t feel up to throwing them away yourself get someone you really trust to do it for you x

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Anonymous asked: Yay:D by the way how do you stop cutting when you don't want to? I know it sounds stupid and I know I should stop but I don't want to if that makes sense? It's just you have managed to not do it for weeks at a time and that just seems impossible to me at the moment :/

i know how that feels hun, honestly i was like that not too long ago. well i have multiple different ways of coping, not all of them are great but they stop me from cutting. 

but before you start on any of these you have to do something that is going to be very hard, trust me i know how hard this is but you have to get rid of your blades/knife/scissors whatever you use to cut, and i mean as far away as possible because putting it in your bedroom bin is no good cause come when the urges start i found that i just went hunting through my bin.

- take deep breaths in and out when feeling the urge to cut and try and clear your mind, i think about the beach and how i don’t want any scars to mean i can’t sunbathe 

- going for a jog, not for long but long enough that when you get home you feel totally knackered and won’t have the effort to actually cut

- screaming

- crying 

-ringing a friend, talking about anything but not the cutting, that will only make you want to do it more

- don’t go on tumblr, i find it very triggering 

i don’t know many more i just hit a point after being in hospital it just stopped working for me i couldn’t stand it anymore and had to stop, seeing my scars upset me to much to create new ones :L 

sorry its not much help

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