It gets to a point when you’re lay in bed and you realise how much of a failure right. I can’t even fucking kill myself right. That’s how much of a failure I am.
Honestly I feel like everyone that was ever important to me is leaving me.
If things were easy to find they wouldn’t be worth finding
griffindwhore: Missing friends is the worst, especially when they are the most important person in your life. Wish things were how they used to be!!
Disjdidnehsuedid Why am I such a jealous bitch? And why on earth am I still missing you after how you’ve been treating me. My heart makes no sense and it won’t listen to my head.
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Today I honestly realised how much I hate myself. I look in the mirror and hate what with such a passion it makes me want to be sick.
Mum: but you are getting better aren't you?
Me: yes (no I'm really not I'm getting worse I'm holding everything in and everyday I feel like I'm going to burst I need someone to talk to but every time I try to talk to someone I freeze up and can't get the words out, I punish myself in a daily basis for being a fat ugly selfish bitch, I hurt everyone around me and cry myself to sleep at night. But yes of course I'm getting better because faking a smile and a laugh makes it look that way)
Was going to write a post about how much I hate it when people don’t text back then reliased I’m doing that to almost everyone that text me today. Oopps
I really wanna find love, but there is always that...
Really want to ring my auntie she’s the only one that understands all this but I’d feel like such a brat not to mention it’s ten to 11 at night.
Fighting all my urges because I know how much damage a new blade will do when im this upset. I don’t want to do that much damage or do I? That was the point of the new blade the other one was blunt it didn’t go deep enough. I wish I could talk to you because so far you’re the best at calming me down at times like these.
Do you remember the day's when you didn't have...
bloodstainedrazors: loveistheslowestformofsuicide: Of course I do.. more than anything.
fredikefred: Edward Cullen: I want to kill you. Bella: I trust you. Edward Cullen: I want to kill you. Normal Person: Edward Cullen: I want to kill you. Supernatural Fan: Edward Cullen: I want to kill you. Doctor Who fan: Edward Cullen: I want to ki— Harry Potter Fan: AVADA KEDAVRA! Edward Cullen: I want to kill you. Misfits Fan:
I feel like we’re drifting and it sucks
I miss the days when I looked forward to growing...